10/07/14
Well,
General Conference last weekend was by far my most favorite. I think
the reason is because this time I truly honestly and sincerely had
questions with things that I have been struggling with and looking
for added strength too and it was so amazing when I felt that the
speakers were specifically talking to me about things that I have
been needing help with. I think one of my favorites was by Elder
Jorg Klebingat. I'm a pretty blunt guy and I don't like things being
sugar coated when I am being spoken to and his talk was absolutely
directed towards me, lemme tell ya! I loved it so much. I can't
wait to print it off and really study it. I hope everyone else had
as great of an experience as I did and if not go through those talks
again and read them or listen to them and you will have that
experience!
Last
weekend was bittersweet for me as well. A family that I got VERY
close to in the Bandelier got baptized! It was a very special
situation since they live in another stake but through the proper
authority and priesthood keys, miracles can happen. And that family
getting baptized so soon may have been one of the most amazing
miracles I have ever seen in my life. I was so sad that I was not
able to attend the baptism since I am serving in another zone now
-even though I was 5 minutes away. The Lord's house is a house of
order. It really did kill me inside to not be able to go and I'm
still not too sure what the Lord was trying to teach me, but
conference once again really helped with that. They truly are a
special family. There was about 280 people in attendance for their
baptism. I guess on the bright side of things I will be off of my
mission when they go get sealed and I will get to go to that :) My
last companion Elder Taylor and I had so many spiritual experiences
with that family that I will never forget and its experiences like
those that strengthen my testimony and let me know without a shadow
of a doubt that our Savior lives and he truly does have a plan for us
individually and as a family. Its in moments like that when you know
exactly why you were sent to the New Mexico Albuquerque Mission and
even though you always wanted to leave when you were 19 but agency
happens and things don't work out the way they do and you end up
going on your mission later than normal, you realize why the Lord's
timing is not your timing. This family has helped me realize that
and I would never trade anything for the opportunity that I had to
get to grow so close to them. They truly are an amazing family. I
was lucky to get pictures of them before they got baptized! I love
them!
Love
Elder Espinoza
Approaching the Throne of God with Confidence
by Elder Jörg Klebingat
Or, scroll down past the pictures to read it.
Teal, Cameron, Graham, Alyssa and Bella :) Bella isn't old enough to get baptized yet
Hot air balloon fiesta
Approaching the Throne of God with Confidence
By applying
the Atonement of Jesus Christ, you can begin increasing your spiritual
confidence today if you are willing to listen and act.
On
a scale of 1 to 10, how would you rate your spiritual confidence before
God? Do you have a personal witness that your current offering as a
Latter-day Saint is sufficient to inherit eternal life? Can you say
within yourself that Heavenly Father is pleased with you? What thoughts
come to mind if you had a personal interview with your Savior one minute
from now? Would sins, regrets, and shortcomings dominate your
self-image, or would you simply experience joyful anticipation? Would
you meet or avoid His gaze? Would you linger by the door or confidently
walk up to Him?
Whenever
the adversary cannot persuade imperfect yet striving Saints such as you
to abandon your belief in a personal and loving God, he employs a
vicious campaign to put as much distance as possible between you and
God. The adversary knows that faith in Christ—the kind of faith that
produces a steady stream of tender mercies and even mighty miracles—goes
hand in hand with a personal confidence that you are striving to choose
the right. For that reason he will seek access to your heart to tell
you lies—lies that Heavenly Father is disappointed in you, that the
Atonement is beyond your reach, that there is no point in even trying,
that everyone else is better than you, that you are unworthy, and a
thousand variations of that same evil theme.
As
long as you allow these voices to chisel away at your soul, you can’t
approach the throne of God with real confidence. Whatever you do,
whatever you pray for, whatever hopes for a miracle you may have, there
will always be just enough self-doubt chipping away at your faith—not
only your faith in God but also your confidence in yourself. Living the
gospel in this manner is no fun, nor is it very healthy. Above all, it
is completely unnecessary! The decision to change is yours—and yours
alone.
I
would like to share six practical suggestions that, if heeded, will
dissipate these evil voices and restore to you the kind of peaceful
assurance and spiritual confidence that is yours to have if you only
want it. Regardless of the rating you gave yourself on that 1-to-10
scale, by applying the Atonement of Jesus Christ, you can begin
increasing your spiritual confidence today if you are willing to listen
and act. I will speak boldly, hoping to edify and not to offend.
1. Take responsibility for your own spiritual well-being.
Stop blaming others or your circumstances, stop justifying, and stop
making excuses for why you may not be fully striving to be obedient.
Accept that you are “free according to the flesh” and “free to choose
liberty and eternal life” (2 Nephi 2:27).
The Lord knows your circumstances perfectly, but He also knows
perfectly well whether you simply choose not to fully live the gospel.
If that is the case, be honest enough to admit it, and strive to be
perfect within your own sphere of circumstances. Spiritual
confidence increases when you take responsibility for your own
spiritual well-being by applying the Atonement of Jesus Christ daily.
2. Take responsibility for your own physical well-being. Your soul consists of your body and spirit (see D&C 88:15).
Feeding the spirit while neglecting the body, which is a temple,
usually leads to spiritual dissonance and lowered self-esteem. If you
are out of shape, if you are uncomfortable in your own body and can do
something about it, then do it! Elder Russell M. Nelson has taught that
we should “regard our body as a temple of our very own” and that we
should “control our diet and exercise for physical fitness” (“We Are
Children of God,”Ensign, Nov. 1998, 87; Liahona, Jan. 1999, 103).
President
Boyd K. Packer has taught “that our spirit and our body are combined in
such a way that our body becomes an instrument of our mind and the
foundation of our character” (“The Instrument of Your Mind and the
Foundation of Your Character” [Church Educational System fireside,
Feb. 2, 2003], 2; speeches.byu.edu). Therefore, please use good judgment
in what and especially how much you eat, and regularly give your body
the exercise it needs and deserves. If you are physically able, decide
today to be the master of your own house and begin a regular, long-term
exercise program, suited to your abilities, combined with a healthier
diet. Spiritual confidence increases when your spirit, with the help of the Savior, is truly in charge of your natural man or woman.
3. Embrace voluntary, wholehearted obedience as part of your life.
Acknowledge that you cannot love God without also loving His
commandments. The Savior’s standard is clear and simple: “If ye love me,
keep my commandments” (John 14:15).
Selective obedience brings selective blessings, and choosing something
bad over something worse is still choosing wrong. You can’t watch a bad
movie and expect to feel virtuous because you did not watch a very
bad one. Faithful observance of some commandments doesn’t justify
neglecting others. Abraham Lincoln rightly said, “When I do good I feel
good, when I do bad I feel bad” (in William H. Herndon and Jesse William
Weik, Herndon’s Lincoln: The True Story of a Great Life, 3 vols. [1889], 3:439).
Also, do the right things for the right reasons. The Lord, who “requireth the heart and a willing mind” (D&C 64:34) and who “is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart” (D&C 33:1),
knows why you go to church—whether you are present in body only or
truly worshipping. You can’t sing on Sunday, “O Babylon, O Babylon, [I]
bid thee farewell” and then seek or tolerate its company again moments
later (“Ye Elders of Israel,” Hymns,
no. 319). Remember that casualness in spiritual matters never was
happiness. Make the Church and the restored gospel your whole life, not
just a part of your outward or social life. Choosing this day whom you
will serve is lip service only—until you actually live accordingly (see Joshua 24:15). Spiritual
confidence increases when you are truly striving, for the right
reasons, to live a consecrated life in spite of your imperfections!
4. Become really, really good at repenting thoroughly and quickly.
Because the Atonement of Jesus Christ is very practical, you should
apply it generously 24/7, for it never runs out. Embrace the Atonement
of Jesus Christ and repentance as things that are to be welcomed and
applied daily according to the Great Physician’s orders. Establish an
attitude of ongoing, happy, joyful repentance by making it your
lifestyle of choice. In doing so, beware of the temptation to
procrastinate, and don’t expect the world to cheer you on. Keeping your
eyes on the Savior, care more about what He thinks of you, and let the
consequences follow. Spiritual confidence
increases when you voluntarily and joyfully repent of sins, both small
and great, in real time by applying the Atonement of Jesus Christ.
5. Become really, really good at forgiving. “I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men” (D&C 64:10).
Forgive everyone, everything, all the time, or at least strive to do
so, thus allowing forgiveness into your own life. Don’t hold grudges,
don’t be easily offended, forgive and forget quickly, and don’t ever
think that you are exempt from this commandment. Spiritual confidence increases when you know that the Lord knows that you bear no ill feelings toward another soul.
6. Accept trials, setbacks, and “surprises” as part of your mortal experience.
Remember that you are here to be proved and tested, “to see if [you]
will do all things whatsoever the Lord [your] God shall command [you]” (Abraham 3:25)—and
may I just add, “under all circumstances.” Millions of your brothers
and sisters have been or are being thus tested, so why would you be
exempt? Some trials come through your own disobedience or negligence.
Other trials come because of the negligence of others or simply because
this is a fallen world. When these trials come, the adversary’s minions
begin broadcasting that you did something wrong, that this is a
punishment, a sign that Heavenly Father does not love you. Ignore that!
Instead, try to force a smile, gaze heavenward, and say, “I understand,
Lord. I know what this is. A time to prove myself, isn’t it?” Then
partner with Him to endure well to the end. Spiritual confidence
increases when you accept that “often trials and tribulations are
allowed to come into [your life] because of what [you] are doing right”
(Glenn L. Pace, “Crying with the Saints” [Brigham Young University
devotional, Dec. 13, 1987], 2; speeches.byu.edu).
While
presiding over the Ukraine Kyiv Mission, I once asked one of my most
faithful sisters why she was always so hard on herself, why she was
always beating herself up over the smallest things. Her answer was a
classic example of someone listening to the wrong voice as she replied,
“So no one can beat me to it.”
Brothers
and sisters, my counsel to this sister missionary is my counsel to you:
acknowledge and face your weaknesses, but don’t be immobilized by them,
because some of them will be your companions until you depart this
earth life. No matter what your current status, the very moment you
voluntarily choose honest, joyful, daily repentance by striving to
simply do and be your very best, the Savior’s Atonement envelops and
follows you, as it were, wherever you go. Living in this manner, you can
truly “always retain a remission of your sins” (Mosiah 4:12) every hour of every day, every second of every minute, and thus be fully clean and acceptable before God all the time.
Yours
is the privilege, if you want it, to come to know for yourself, today
or soon, that you are pleasing God in spite of your shortcomings. I
testify of a loving Savior who expects us to live the commandments. I
testify of a loving Savior who is so very anxious to bestow His grace
and mercy. I testify of a loving Savior who rejoices when we apply His
Atonement daily with the calm and happy assurance that we are facing in
the right direction. I testify of a loving Savior who is anxious for
your “confidence [to] wax strong in the presence of God” (D&C 121:45). In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
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